Official Worst Night Of My Life
Hey all. I wanted to blog about this last nite, but I was too in shock/upset to actually go down and write about it.
We (Will and I) went to my friend's bday get together, with only us and a few of her girl friends.
A little background : Me, Will and C were best friends in primary school and we kept in touch throughout high school (C went to another school). So naturally in uni we were set on rebuilding the friendship to its former strength. What we didnt reckon with is that we've all changed , and she's made some new friends, who we can't stand because they are like the Plastics in Mean Girls....
Anyway. Now C is a great girl. Never says anything mean about anyone, very sweet and helping yap yap yap. You get it.
So last night we get there, and the gifts we bought her were put on the bed so we could do a toast in the living room on her bday.
Everyone starts chatting and everything, and like always, it goes to the subject of men. Coincidentally I was the only one in 6 girls who wasnt attached long term. Cue some pitiful looks from the Plastic Camp. But Im used to this response so I shrug it off. Then the one says to another:
"That boyfriend of yours, (they are dating 6 months) he has a car, a house, all he needs is a wife. I think he's going to propose to you in this year. "
For the next half an hour they talk about marriage.
"First 21, then marriage, huh girls?" Then they giggle conspiratorially and you want to take a pick axe to their heads.
Bloody hell!!! Will and I were looking at each other in horror accross the table.
Are we the only women who are intent on getting a degree, a cushy job, independence and THEN get married????
Sure we want to get married, have kids , a wonderful husband.
Just not right now. We're 21 for goodness sake.
And one of the girls said that "There's nothing more attractive than a man with a great car." ....and has a heart of stone??
Is there something wrong with me that I only want a man who is kind and who I can connect with? The rest I can do for myself....buy a car, take forever to pay the mortgage of MY OWN house....
I feel like independence is something I was cursed with now.
Part 2 : C decides to make a bday speech.
She starts from the beginning, me and will.
"You guys were always there. No matter how far apart we are, we always seem to get together."
Then she says of M:
"You are my inspiration, through your life I want to be a better person."
Then on to L:
"You have crept into my heart and we are going to be best friends forever."
Am I being paranoid or did we get the raw end of the deal here?
I feel like a piece of her past that doesnt want to fuck off and leave her alone.
All this has forced me to reassess who I am to other people and how much of a blessing a real friend like Will is. I'm just really hurt. That's all.
Anni 
